I am Rainbow

The same person who told me indirectly what was ok to disclose about her boyfriend in Don’t tell me also commented, “Oh, good, you are FINALLY looking for work.”

I had been looking for SUITABLE work that I would like and do not get taken advantage of for many months, even before I resigned. She knew that.

Somehow, maybe, she thought that I was so lazy to find work all these months.

Takkan..

• I tell her everytime I apply jobs and go for interviews?
• I tell her that I have searched and applied to those companies that I think they are suitable to get a career in purchasing from helpful friends and ex-colleagues (thank you very much!), internet, newspapers, forums, job agencies to my Fashion Retail link list in PASIM?
• Whenever she comes to my house, takkan I continue with companies and jobs searches? Of course I have to layan my guests!
• When we hangout together, only with her or with mutual friends, takkan I show my stress that I couldn’t find good work? I already have enough proof on my chin. Lots of red angry pimples ugh. Whining and moaning would spoil everyone’s mood.

She had been hinting, “One must take charge of one’s career. Must get property, cars, achievements, recognition, high salary, etc.” She looked meaningfully at me. “We are not young anymore.”

Sometimes I think she looks for my company just to give herself a mental boost - you’d feel better after knowning that there are people worse off than you. But I take it as she’s motivating me instead. It’s what and how we react that make us.

Earlier, she called me, “Eh, want to go to The Curve?”

“Err.. very tempting but I am searching for work now and helping friend to send resume.”

“Come lar.. we go kai kai.” Since she had started dating, she had been baby-speak. “Can lend me your charger also?”

When she reached my place, she said, “Want to find ConstructionGuy. He owes me money.”

Oh.

“I only have to get payment from my client and then we can go to The Curve and find ConstructionGuy.”

“Where is ConstructionGuy?” I asked.

“His office is very near The Curve only.”

Hah! She wanted company to collect payment - which was part of her job. Frankly, I think it’s really unprofessional to rope friend(s) along to your job tasks. Business and pleasure can mix but not when you are collecting payments. But that’s just my opinion. Obviously people who get business contracts by entertaining clients to food, karaoke and drinks think differently.

Unfortunately for her, both parties weren’t able to give her the payments.

“You don’t - you cannot - tell me if my boyfriend behave badly. If he has another girlfriend, then you can tell me,” someone reasoned with me on which was permissible to disclose.

Isn’t having another girlfriend when he already has you IS behaving badly? It’s certainly not a crime in the eyes of law, is it? Unless you are married.

“Like if he kills and rob someone, then of course you could tell me,” someone continued. “But if he just speak rudely.. ” someone shook someone’s head, “you don’t tell people that!”

Now I knew what was someone’s boundary. It used to be, “I don’t want to know if my boyfriend is seeing another outside!” That’s different from “I don’t want my boyfriend to see another girl outside”, mind you.

“It’s no use actually. When you are in love, you don’t care,” someone deducted from mutual friend’s experience when both of us had told mutual friend about mutual friend’s negative behaviour.

It’s like:

B: Do you think my boyfriend is rude? What do you think of him? Suitable for me? I think he’s very rude sometimes. I wished he were more gentleman. *complain, complain*

A: Eh, true la.. your boyfriend is very rude la. Always talk 4 letter words. *reluctantly said the truth - in A’s eyes*
B: When?

A: Neh, [long story, many incidents]..

B: So what?!

A: Ha? *surprised*

B: He’s my boyfriend! Why are you complaining about him hah?! *fists*

A: I’m only telling you because I care about you - *said slowly, carefully but was cut off*

B: You cannot complain about him! Only I can complain about him, OK?! *slam table* He’s not perfect but at least I have a boyfriend! Next time when you have a boyfriend you would know!

So would you let the cat out of the bag? What would you tell?