I tried something using a free voucher given by Mich. I had to choose to buy it or lose the 50% discounts. It had to be on that day. Only that day.
Even though my head wasn’t that big, I wanted to wear the big hat. The big hat would make my head look better. Or so I hoped. I bought the big hat. It’s a Chinese metaphor “moi kum dai ge tao, mm mou dai kum dai ge mou” which means if you don’t have such a big head, don’t wear a big hat. Because it isn’t compatible. Mostly it’s used on people who wanted to buy something really extravagant but couldn’t afford it. Me. Ugh!
I could blame on the recommender but it wasn’t the recommender’s fault. *bang head onto wall repeatedly* Dum dum.
Sigh.. I so wanted to go back and return the purchase. Regret Regret..
Shit! How am I going to live with this?
As I waited for the bus, I held the purchase tightly – didn’t want someone to steal it after I had paid so much for it. Maybe I can sell it off! :)
:( Who would want it?
Alas, I waited for awhile but there was no bus! I went back inside to Borders bookshop – since I was already in the area, might as well learn something from Borders and from the trip. Saved my transport money if I have to come here just to go to Borders.
I prided myself on not being a shopaholic and getting into debts. Now I know how it feels to want something but couldn’t afford it, yet still buy it and then regret it.
How it feels to have someone berating you for making such mistake. Like when 1 of my friend confessed, “I don’t have anymore money. I bought [so many things] already.”
I retorted, “Who told you to buy so expensive?”
After the purchase, I berated myself for it. Now I experienced what my friend could’ve felt when I retorted him. I was like my friend. In the first place, I couldn’t identify with my friend’s need to spend more than available. Now I do. (Is my grammar correct?)
I stood in front of the Self Improvement rack for a long time. Just looking at the book covers with no particular target. Absorbed the titles and quotes.. Breathed in peace (a bit). My eyes wandered and then stared at 1 book.
Guy Finley – The Secret of Letting Go
Oh, this guy is old :) but according to his official website:
Guy is the best-selling author of The Secret of Letting Go and more than 30 other books and audio albums that have sold over a million copies in 16 languages worldwide. In addition, he has presented over 4,000 unique self-realization seminars to thousands of grateful students throughout North America and Europe over the past 20 years and has been a guest on over 400 television and radio shows, including national appearances on ABC, NBC, CBS, CNN, NPR, Wisdom Network, and many others.
Throughout his youth, Guy suspected there was more to life than the type of worldly success that led to the emptiness and frustration he saw among his own “successful” friends and colleagues.
His own “successful” friends and colleagues? I wasn’t successful (in terms of career) – in fact, the reason I was reading it at Borders during most office people’s working hours was because I was looking for the greatest, most suitable career/job for myself. Heh. Ironic huh? I wasn’t successful and I was feeling empty, frustrated,
helpless demotivated. At least those people were successful. Shouldn’t they be happy?
Worldly success and inner happiness can be related. Or not.
Browsing his official website, the fonts Papyrus looked very familiar… Mmm.. Oh! I know! I had subscribed to his site’s newsletter after reading this book. After a month reading his newsletter, I unsubscribed. The newsletters are not full via email but I had to click to go to his website – this I know it’s to get more hits on the website. And then, you still have to click on another link to read the whole newsletter. The newsletter is also very simple. Maybe life is – it should be.
I can’t say I read the whole book and understand 1/2 of what I read at that. But I felt so much better after that. The book is really so much more useful than the newsletters.
What’s done is done. I had felt regret and stupidity. I let go of that feeling and know that I would use the product to the maximum. I promised to myself I wouldn’t repeat the same mistake again.
Guy Finley – The Secret of Letting Go with chapters info. I’d recommend you read the 2 text excerpts and hear audio-recorded excerpts provided so that you get an idea what the book is about. The idea of letting go is inspiring. Since it’s in really plain English, no exotic words and not many specific examples or real life situations either, I felt some parts were boring.
If you have issues that you still keep – maybe it’s being touch inappropriately by your uncle when you were a kid, maybe it’s addiction to smoking, keep thinking of how lovely the past was with your deceased wife.. this book may lift you to let go and take positive actions to resolve pending issues.
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